stigman

Hi guys! Lately I've got back into doing my art. I'll use it as a way to stimulate my brain when I first wake up and while drinking bullet proof coffee. I have so many unfinished pieces that need to be colored and edited and I will do my best to get them all done. Its so inspiring that it has me coming up with new Art ideas all the time! So, basically I'm working on unfinished art while coming up with new ones.You can look forward to seeing some amazing pieces come from me soon! 

It started not long after I finished editing the absolutely noone picture one day there was a thunderstorm and it knocked the power out for a second and when the pc came back on it kept making a beep noise and pop off and reset over and over again. I tried many things like restarting from a previous time in the memory but the same behavior so i ran a diagnostic and it said the os loader was missing so i looked up a solution online to fix it and it seemed to fix it but when i restarted the same thing it gets to the dell startup screen and load bar then pops off and beeps and repeats forever.  So no photoshop since and i dont have money to repair it and I dont know how much it would cost to repair it. I cant restart the whole software because there is so much on that pc i musnt lose unfinished art and photos and music and photoshop!  It was only cs2 but it was good enough for me. I also had my pc plugged up to a big screen hd tv so it was ideal for art. This is why Ive had to cut back to traditional art methods wirh limmited supplies.  One good thing though I have a job i plan on staying with for a while so soon I will get it repaired. 

Where is this going, uncertain.  The story plays out so fast I don't know how to keep up.I don't know where I belong or how to get there. My art suffers in this transition. I withdraw from life. One day I think I will withdraw completely, not to be found by any soul in this universe. Maybe I'm going crazy. I cant explain many of my actions without causing a fuss. I'm truly , deeply interested in being with my friends and going to college and progressing in life in a linear , productive pattern, but I don't and every effort I've made in those directions backfire or simply cannot be done.Part of this is due to my lack of telephone use and lack of owning a cellphone. Ever since I moved to this town I've been on this permanent vacation that I'm unable to get back from. I left behind a great deal in 2008. I began to purge myself of who I was and since then I've undergone many different transformations. Its sort-of like Doctor Who with the regenerations. I have dreamed so many dreams.The internet situation was a confusing one. First it looked as though it would be gone then we were going to get high-speed then we went back to dial up. My grandfather broke his hip which freaked me out a bit and I've been stuck at home alone with nothing to do but guard the house, but he is alright now and will be in therapy soon. I've learned that honesty backfires almost as much as lying can.I would very much like to find a female companion but I don't have a job and I don't get out enough so that's not going to happen. I even joined a dating site and there hasn't been anyone interested in me.Okay writing this journal is starting to depress me so I'm going to end it here.  


                                 ~~~~jonb

You guys wont be seeing much of me anymore now that I'm losing my dail-up internet. So there probly wont be any art for a year or so. I'm going to be working on moving out of here before I go completely insane. Its sad that we cant even afford dail up internet. Its not even real internet. WTF

It's been a long time since I wrote a journal. Been through much emotional stress and gave up on art for many months but now the rays of creativity are are shining through the cracks of the frost. Soon I will deliver such art this earth has never seen! You will all be in awe of my glorious reprise!